As you can probably tell from my previous posts, creative procrastination is a recurring theme.
However, I’m forever intrigued by my ability to achieve all tasks list promptly in my job (and extremely efficiently given I’m an executive assistant!) or the never ending mum list - but the same “must finish the task” is forever overridden when it comes to my creativity.
Yet commitment and perseverance to complete work tasks and those for the good of the ones I love, I have in abundance. And obviously that isn’t always a bad thing but I think it possibly highlights a lack of love & commitment to me, to my wants & dreams. A lack of belief that regular commitment to my creativity could result in achievements purely for me…and that is the truth of my localised procrastination, it’s a manifestation of my lack of self belief. It’s an action to support the “what’s the point, I’ll never be good enough” voice inside my head which has taken over regularly, trying to shout down that sparkle of wanting to achieve more, to be more, that arrived passionately 7 years birthed with my son ago but which financial responsibilities, day to day drudge and bone tiredness of getting life done, (plus wanting to use spare time to enjoy the ones I love too), has prevented the bursting in to full fire flames the creative phoenix screaming to rise.
So, after a January of enforced hibernation, I took one small step this week and signed up to this Scratch to Sketch Notebook via Emily’s Notebook.
My aim this year is to finally stop the all or nothing approach of forcing a new creative career overnight from my creativity and instead commit to simply drawing & learning.
Such a simple aim but aren’t they always the hardest to commit to for ourselves!? I’d love to hear about the localised procrastination points in your life in the comments and any tips you use to overcome them!
Procrastination has been my life long theme, that in the past has led to completing work on a deadline. I am retired now, so there are no deadlines. Needless to the say the procrastination is still with me. I accept it right now. I hope in accepting it, it causes less angst.